I haven’t written in a few weeks and the truth is I have been struggling to find the time to devote to blogging. As much as I love to write, it still takes a certain level of discipline for me to get my computer out, open up a document, and write.
I have not made this a priority even though I receive great satisfaction from writing, and I feel a natural high when I have completed an article – similar to how I feel when I finish exercising.
I haven’t found a way to work this into my life and make it a habit like other things I enjoy. Part of the reason for this is because I need to be alone when I write with no interruptions. Having my kid’s home with me makes this impossible, especially since they have both given up on afternoon naps.
What I have found is it’s much easier for me to incorporate something in my life that is completely dependent on my actions and does not take other factors into account. For example, not having sugar/flour/alcohol in my life is so easy for me because this is something that I can do no matter who is around and what is going on in my life.
Getting back to blogging, every night I go to bed thinking I can wake up before my kids and get some writing in, only to ignore my alarm and wake up with the kids instead. Then I tell myself I will write after they go to bed, but at that point my brain is spent and it’s so much easier to choose lying in bed reading or watching TV, instead of sitting in front of a computer.
This is true for so many things in life, right? We have good intentions, but just can’t seem to take action on them. We choose what’s more comfortable in the moment, or we choose to make other things more important.
Personally, I have to marinate in my mental exhaustion of trying to change something before I actually make the change. It’s like I have to get to the point where I am utterly fed up with the way I am doing things, I hit my tipping point, and then change comes naturally.
In the past it’s looked something like this: I spend a lot of time thinking about how I need to exercise and when I will exercise, only to not exercise. Than one day it’s like my body and brain get on the same page and instead of constantly thinking about it, it happens.
For some things, like stopping drinking, I spent a few years contemplating giving it up. Then I spent a few months telling myself I should stop. Then one day it just seemed like an easy decision to make.
When these spontaneous transformations happen, I try to remind myself that it’s how I operate so there is no need to keep beating myself up for things I know I should be doing. Eventually, I will do them.
But maybe the back and forth mental chatter is what I need to get to the point of making change? Without it, I might find myself unburdened by the issue I want to change and stay complacent?
So what are you constantly trying to get yourself to do that hasn’t happened yet? Do you think reminding yourself endlessly of what needs to happen is helping or hurting you? And, more importantly, is the change you are trying to make really worth all the mental energy?
For me, yes, it is worth the mental energy because of the emotional reward I receive when I’m done writing. Hopefully, I will hit my tipping point soon, and frequent writing will become a no brainer.
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